…I’ve had some interesting thoughts going through my mind as of late and I’m not sure how to fit them all into words.So I don’t know why but coming up on 30 has been an adventure and a stress for me lately.Most people say 30 don’t bother you but it does me.I moved through life losing touch with a lot of people for a lot of reasons,and then come back across some as well.I believe that everyone in your life serves a purpose for you somehow even if they don’t remain a big part of it they are always there.Whether it be for you to reflect on or to cross paths again someday they are always there.If a part of your past that you didn’t ever want to remember again comes about then it is time to face it and maybe make your amends and if a part of your past comes about that you missed it then maybe the reason why should be considered.
…There are a lot of things in this world that change us people.Some make us strong,some make us cold,some make us emotionless over time and we shut the world out.It’s how you choose to deal with it,but there is always that one person you may cross paths with again and again that in some strange way understands this and hears this and gets it.Let them listen.The past is not always something we wanna go back to,and sometimes it is,but either way our connections are always a part of who we are somehow.
…I guess over the last 15 years or so my outlook on things has really been up and down and changed dramatically.I’m not looking out the window anymore or looking in the window.Instead I’m opening it and sticking my head out.I am an odd person I guess.I am cautious at times but very trusting.I see the good in someone before I ever consider the bad because the bad is a coverup for hurt and sorrow and struggles past that need someone to hear them,and need to heal.So most people leave things be I usually don’t and I do catch some grief for it but that’s me and I’m not changing anytime soon.
…Keep the ones you love however it is possible to keep them,they fit somewhere.I also believe things shouldn’t be left unsaid because tomorrow may not be there to say them.I talk a lot,but I listen too.People will always see things in you before you do or maybe its just that you don’t want to see them until that moment when you face them.That’s why I myself don’t mind being told sometimes. I am human I do take offense to some things but I get over it.Let go of grudges and see that if life was easy there wouldn’t be a lesson learned from each and everything that takes place in it.I know easier said than done even I have a few now that haven’t gone yet.So catching up with old friends has been part of my adventure and life my stress,but hey It’s all how you take it and whether you run with it or stand still I guess.If life had a pause button for so many moments that have passed by us or a fast forward button for the ones we wanted to pass us by;but here we are….still moving.